LiesHate

I sit by the windowsill in a daze Knowing this feeling won't go away It burns and tears like a spider in my soul The pain is just too unbearable. I get this feeling inside of me Knowing that it won't ever let me be free It is so mixed up with confusion and terror That when I pull at it, I pull out my hair. I want this feeling to go away I never, ever want it to stay But it yells at me as loud as thunder That if it ever left, I would be six feet under. So I must bear with it and try to be happy Even though I am not the same as I used to be So if you ever see me smile You will know that I am in denial.